I'm a dummy

Wazzup. Long time no see my diary.

Yup. I am a dummy who still does not even know how to make a decision. Who easily feel bored when I hook up in something.

And now I'm in a mess. I ruin everything. Idk what I want.

I want to be rich. I want to give pocket money to my mum and dad.
But, I was not able to do so.

I do see the logical reason on this saying.
If you stay on the same place, nothing change. You still the same.

But, when I want to make the changes. It was devastated. It was opposed badly. I just want to make things fine.. I just want to give you leisure, mum. There's nothing more. You are the only mum that I've in this virtual world.

I know, sometimes I was harsh. The words like a knife stabbed into your heart.  Making your heart pounding unstoppable.. But believe me.. That's was only .. My saying when I was not so rational. I did not meant it.

I m sorry mum.
For letting your precious tears coming down this morning.

9/3/2018
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